The Pain
                      
   
   The morning dew always evaporates,color
   is destined to fade,and secrets are never
   found out,
   Just as the skin dwindles away,and eyesight
   slowly deteriorates,so should this gash
   in my heart.
   I'm not allowed to sleep,not allowed to
   sigh,only allowed to dry my tears,
   I'm not allowed to be sane,not allowed to
   be happy,only allowed to feel the pain.
   When I awake, it isn't a new beginning..
   it's a repetition of the past,
   I've been waiting for the present to catch
   up to the future,because time will not
   quell sorrow.
   I thought his love for me was undying and
   I thought his love was supposed to last,
   How could burning desire flicker like
   candlelight? how could such affection die
   so fast?
   I hate to give him this kind of power,but
   there is no antidote or soporific drug,
   The pain becomes severe when I think about
   what we had..why is he so complacent?
   I'm not allowed to sleep,not allowed to
   sigh,only allowed to dry my tears,
   I'm not allowed to be sane,not allowed to
   be happy,only allowed to feel the pain.
   It never goes away..as if my lamentation
   were not enough,
   The pain likes to play games and the cat
   and mouse always leave my heart in shreds.
   The morning dew always evaporates,clouds
   disappear to form a clear blue sky,and
   colors are destined to fade,
   Just as the sky will fade to black,and
   fallen autumn leaves will be swept away by
   the wind,so should this gash in my heart..


   Sushanna